I can't believe I am at 6 months. Most of my adult life I believed I would never be pregnant and yet, here we are.
I have grown a great deal in the last month. I am completely in maternity wear now, with the exception of some really big sweat pants that used to be very loose. My knees and hips have started to complain, a lot. Sleeping is a challenge too. I spend 2 hours on the right side, two hours on the left side, and the rest of the night I am semi-upright. That way I feel like I am giving all sides a chance to ache, even the tail bone. I have a little pregnancy acne going on but it's hardly a big deal. Nothing on me is really swollen (I know, give it time) and my blood pressure is great.
The biggest challenge is getting the Gestational Diabetes under control. I take meds for it 3 times a day (before breakfast, before dinner, and at bed time). My meal numbers are finally under 130, which is what they want. But my fasting morning number has been above 90 every day with the exception of 3 days. I wish I knew why. It is a lot of planning, testing on time, and being very vigilant about food and tracking. I'm okay at all of that and still I can't get that AM number down. I run from 100 to 120 when fasting. I even tried eating at 4 am, which some GD moms do. It didn't help me. So I don't know what they will give me to control it. I'd be happy to get up in the night and take some meds if it meant that my liver would not start kicking up the blood glucose in the night. Overall, it has been as Roni said, a pain in the ass, but totally do-able.
On the Dad front, he is not doing as well as the doctors would like him to. He is in a physical rehab facility and staying there to get treatment depends largely on the progress you make. He isn't progressing fast enough to stay in. They recommended a facility with a higher level of care, but since they/we cannot afford that and he is having surgery again in a month, he is coming to live with us for the interim.
He will be moving into our old office, which is where we were putting the nursery. It's a disappointment to be sure. It's not just that we can't set up the nursery, but the entire pregnancy has been so different than what I pictured and what I wanted. I have to deal with that and let myself feel sad about it, even though just being pregnant is such a wonderful thing. I also have to let go of what I had hoped for. If there is one thing that infertility has taught me, it is that I am able to cope with many challenges and I am stronger than I think. If all goes well our little guy will be with us, sort of the way we picture it, for the rest of our lives. That is what is most important to me.
3 comments:
I am excited for you- 6 months is a great milestone..
I'm so sorry about your dad. I hope that his moving in works out for you all.
And 6 months - OMG that is so wonderful that you are at this point! And yes the GD really sucks. I had the same issue with my morning numbers - it was only the meds that kept it under control and it took literally months to get there. You are doing really great with it!
I know what you mean about things not being as you expect them. It will not change the sweetness of the outcome.
I love your blog! I'm glad to know your procedure was successful! Your son is wonderful boy! I wish you and your family all the best! My dh and I were ttc for a very long time. I've got pregnant in 2009 and we thought that finally our prayers were heard. Unfortunately my pregnancy ended with a miscarriage. We've lost our son and it was shocking for whole our family. I couldn’t get back to life for a long time. I’m glad I have my dh. He gave me support I needed the most. We wanted to have kids so much, it was our only dream. Living childless life wasn't a variant for us. We were thinking about adoption at first. But we wanted our child to be genetically related to our family. Still I had some doubts. My dh looked at this procedure positively. It would be his child anyway. I thought I would be just some woman, who will carry a baby. I have a fear, that everyone will notice it's not mine. I thought it will be obvious and people will talk about it... Also I watched a tv show about de ivf. Some children started to look for women, who shared eggs with these kids' mothers. That was so sad. Those mothers didn't deserve such attitude. They made everything possible their children to have all they need and even more. And here is gratitude. But as this procedure was our only solution of our problem, I made a decision to do it. I should say de ivf is a very good option. I had this procedure in 2014. I've got pregnant from first attempt. We were on seventh heaven! Our girls were born in May 2015. We've just celebrated their first birthday. We used Ukrainian clinic BioTexCom. We are happy parents now! I have no regrets. As soon as I knew I'm pregnant all doubts were wiped out. We decided not to tell our daughters we used donor eggs. I think children' mind is not ready for such info. This fact will change nothing for them. The most important is to give them love and care. I consider myself as their only mother. This is everything they need to know.
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