2dp3dt

Thanks for your wishes. I am trying not to freak out but...I tend to swing from "This is IT", to "It's not gonna work this time". I feel crazy inside. I try to hide it and not torture the people who love me with this mental roller coaster.

Today was the end of my 3 days down. I only really had 1/2 a day of "resting" today. After all, they told me to come in for another E2 blood draw, which takes, with travel time ,1.5 or more hours. So I did that. My E2 has been in a steady decline. I don't know why. It is still over 500 though, but I don't know if it even matters. I was curious about my lining the day of the transfer, but they don't measure it then. So my last check was about a week and a half before the transfer. It was at 10.8. Okay, I'm starting to obsess about my lining again, and I told myself that was water under the bridge. I need to let it go.

This morning when I went for my E2 I asked if the embryologist had any news for us. It was day 5 so I thought they might tell me if any survived to blast or were going to be frozen. The did give me a preliminary report. It was early in the a.m. so they had just taken the first look. Here is the brief:

1 blast: frozen today!!
9 more in culture: they will call in the morning with the report
4 of the smaller celled arrested between Saturday and today

Just that one frozen blast, makes me really happy. Relieved. I still cannot believe these numbers, they stagger me. The embryologist was really happy with what she saw over the weekend and with the embryos in culture. I'm so happy about that. I'm also equally afraid. I'm just trying to live one day at a time, but it's hard. These are all good problems to have. I feel very lucky to have gotten this far.

Here is my schedule for the 2ww.

9-17 Monday E2 blood draw
9-20 Thursday E2 blood draw
9-23 Sunday BETA #1
9-25 Tuesday BETA #2
9-26 Wednesday Results

Unless I feel I am headed for bad news, I will not POAS. Yeah, right. Who am I kidding? No promises.