A Little Insanity

So much insanity, so little time.

 

I (we actually) have been up in the middle of the night many times in the last few weeks thinking about our neighbors possible donating their embryos to us. At first we would wake in the night and talk about it. There was a lot of talking, talking, and more talking. I think we worked over every scenario possible. Now we wake up and just sit together...thinking, wondering, searching for the right answer.

 

I constantly bounce back and forth between visions of the perfect arrangement and visions of a disaster. I am still under the effects of the hormonal roller coaster. The thing is, we cannot know for sure. It's a complete gamble. Hell, I may not even get pregnant then all this emotional turmoil is wasted, eh?

 

Before I go on let me say that we do have an attorney that will work with all four of us, so I feel confident that legally it would be the same arrangement as any embryo donation. WW suggested that we request some health history from them, because that has helped us decide in the past. I don't know. It seems so ungrateful.

 

I called our clinic because I wanted to know how they would handle this arrangement, if it were going to take place. They said that if their IVF was after May of 2006 the donors might have to have additional testing. Well, that would be some trick with an anonymous egg donor. So there is no shortage of logistics to be worked out, if in fact we go forward.

 

We are going to meet with the other couple again tonight! I am on an emotional tightrope. At any time they could just say...no, sorry.

 

We talked about the moving question. It's very doubtful either of us will move, but if things got weird it would always be an option.

 

Did I tell you how many embies they have? They have confirmed that they have 3, in two straws. I don't know the exact age or quality of the embryos yet. So in the best case scenario, two chances.

 

On another note our RE offered that if we wanted to do another donor ovum cycle, they would take off 10% of their fees. Let's see, that works out to $1,500. Their fees are 15,000 that does not include the donor's fee, the blood work, the meds for both me and the donor, etc. The actual amount is $26,000, not including any future FETs from the cycle. So we would still be at $24,500. OMG, there is no way.

 

I know this post is all over the place. My concentration is completely gone. Maybe after tonight I will have something coherent to write. I am very happy reading your blogs, even though my comments are lacking. DG did a summary of our donor recipient sisters and that always make me happy. THANK you DG!

 

On another note my lovely MD prescribed some anti-anxiety drugs for my upcoming flight into the snowy, icy, sleety, freezing, North Midwest. I will try not to take all the pills on the first leg of the flight!