Beta results <5 BFN
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I know I have been very quiet lately. I wish I had a better feeling about this cycle. I tested, HPT, yesterday and it was very, very negative. Unmistakable. I used a sensitive test, FRER. It's supposed to detect levels of 25 mIU, sometimes less. I have been through a lot of emotions in the last 24 hours. WW expected to see a faint BFP on the HPT, as did I. She was really upset. It made me cry to see her so forlorn. We got about 2 hours of sleep last night. We were just laying there feeling all our excitement and hope drain away.
I know there is a very small chance that at this point, 10dp3dt or 13dpo, that I could have a very low beta that would continue to grow. I just don't think that is going to happen. It's my gut feeling.
Dear friends, I will not keep you in suspense, I will post tonight once I know the real beta numbers.
I know there is also one frozen blast to try, but I feel so defeated. Nothing sounds hopeful to me right now. I do wish I had more in the freezer since there will be no other attempts. Know anyone with embryos they want to get rid of (half joking)?
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I'm sorry Daisy. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you.
I will be checking for your beta. I've read many a story of even the FRER not registering HCG that early. I have hope for this for you, I truly do.
But I know the devastation that goes with the Bad Feeling. And my heart breaks that you're feeling that right now.
I fucking hate this process. Stay strong. I am pulling for you.
pulling for you big time...this definitely can be a low beta. please update us!
I am devastated to read this news. After this rollercoaster cycle, how horrible to have this result.
If you don't mind me asking, why will the frozen transfer be your last? I imagine this is costing a fortune if insurance isn't helping. Profoundly fucking unfair that money can get in the way of making a family.
So much love and strength is radiating to you and WW right now.
Oh Daisy & WW, I am so very sorry. How terribly sucky. I'm sorry this didn't work for you. You're in my thoughts.
Hi Daisy,
Lots of love and hugs coming your way. I am so sorry this had to end this way.
Take care and thinking of you guys.
I'm very sorry.
I know how you feel. I've been there and it's the most awful feeling in the world. And I don't want to give you false hope, but it may be too early. Sometimes they implant late.
I wish I could envelop you both, and take away the pain and hopelessness. I understand.
I am so sorry Daisy I am thinking about you.
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