I seem to be having the same problem as so many making-a-baby-bloggers, I just don't blog anymore now that the baby is here. *sigh*
Life with our little guy is just over the top with sweetness. We all adore him. He has a big personality and is so happy...except when it's not. He lets us know when he is unhappy. :)
He is 14 months old now and we have no regrets about the path we chose. Life has sped by so quickly that sometimes I don't even remember being pregnant. Over the last 14 months while joyous about our darling boy, I have grieved the loss of the twin that did not live and I have grieved not having any more children. Never being pregnant again. Do I wish? Yes I do. Especially since I have all those lovely frozen embies. I dream, that we win the lottery and we get to have a wonderful surrogate to help us make the dream a reality.
I realize that for me, my blog has been about the making a baby lifestyle and the longer I am connected to that the more it fuels the desire to keep going, just one more. Trying for a sibling that has some genetic connection to our beautiful boy. Not so much for me, but for him. This circles around in my head often, despite the grieving.
On the flip side of that is the utter joy we have in our lives. The chance to relish every little moment of his life, and through that the little moments of all of our lives. Such a beautiful thing to live in the moment.
I work from home now since May and WW is here with me taking care of our darlings. It has been a challenging summer but so rewarding too. Being able to be here with them all summer! What a treat! A great opportunity for us to be closer. We are truly now a settled family of 5.
I hear him waking up now from his nap. He is saying is favorite word "Ow". He says a lot of words in his little baby speak way.
This is my no regrets life.
No regrets.
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I love your blog! I'm glad to know your procedure was successful! Your son is wonderful boy! I wish you and your family all the best! My dh and I were ttc for a very long time. I've got pregnant in 2009 and we thought that finally our prayers were heard. Unfortunately my pregnancy ended with a miscarriage. We've lost our son and it was shocking for whole our family. I couldn’t get back to life for a long time. I’m glad I have my dh. He gave me support I needed the most. We wanted to have kids so much, it was our only dream. Living childless life wasn't a variant for us. We were thinking about adoption at first. But we wanted our child to be genetically related to our family. Still I had some doubts. My dh looked at this procedure positively. It would be his child anyway. I thought I would be just some woman, who will carry a baby. I have a fear, that everyone will notice it's not mine. I thought it will be obvious and people will talk about it... Also I watched a tv show about de ivf. Some children started to look for women, who shared eggs with these kids' mothers. That was so sad. Those mothers didn't deserve such attitude. They made everything possible their children to have all they need and even more. And here is gratitude. But as this procedure was our only solution of our problem, I made a decision to do it. I should say de ivf is a very good option. I had this procedure in 2014. I've got pregnant from first attempt. We were on seventh heaven! Our girls were born in May 2015. We are happy parents now! I have no regrets. As soon as I knew I'm pregnant all doubts were wiped out. We decided not to tell our daughters we used donor eggs. I think children' mind is not ready for such info. This fact will change nothing for them. The most important is to give them love and care. I consider myself as their only mother. This is everything they need to know.
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