Time is such an odd thing. On the one hand, time is dragging by; on the other, going by in a flash. 33 weeks today and I am feeling every bit of it. I still can't walk without a walker and when I am out, I am in a wheelchair (good times). There is a bright side of the pain and limitations. I get to work from home and see my family more often. There are lots of down sides to it, but I don't like to think about them...what good would it do?
Mr. Baby seems to be doing just fine. He is growing and moving around all the time. I expect that he is somewhere around 5.5 lbs by now. GD babies tend to run on the large side. My GD meds and diet are getting harder to control and my numbers can really jump around. Sometimes that means increasing the Gly*bu*ride. I am up to 11 mg per day and the max is 20 mg per day, so I think I will make it to the end of the pregnancy without having to go to insulin injections. It just make life harder to carry around syringes and insulin that has to be refrigerated. But really the GD is out of my control. It's all about the placenta.
I have another OB appointment on the 14th and I can't wait to see him, find out how much he might weigh, see what position he is in. I expect that he goes from breech to transverse and back again. I get most of my biggest "kicks" down low. I'm not going to stress about it at this point. Again, nothing I can do about it.
These days I mostly find myself thinking about how I will handle two big things...the heat and labor and delivery. We had a week of 80 degree weather and I was clearly not ready for it. I was unprepared for how heat really effects pregnant women this far along.
I think about L&D a lot too. I run scenarios through my head wondering if I can mentally prepare for anything. WW believes this is pre-mature, at least for this month. When June comes...then we will really be much closer.
My dad had surgery this weekend. They took out a cancerous mass and a lymph node. We don't know what kind of cancer it is. He has had melanoma removed from his face and we are all hoping that it isn't that. My parents have been living with us for three months. I expect it will be at least three more months until they are ready to transition to their home or some other facility. It really depends on the cancer, if he needs chemo, if his diabetes can get back under control, his memory problems, etc. It's been a really tough three months. Our house is still in disarray. No nursery. One dresser, the bassinet, and a rocking chair are in our bedroom (plus the walker and wheelchair). It's cramped. Nothing else is set up for the little guy. The bedroom furniture we bought for him is being used by my parents. Along with twin beds we bought as future bunk beds.
I have learned to let go of a lot of things, expectations, my personal wishes. It's a learning experience. I think that it will help me appreciate it more when I have things the way I want them. I mean, really, what do we need if not just each other?
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- Ramblings of an ultimate late bloomer in all aspects of life. Living life perpetually behind schedule. After 16 DIUIs and 1 IVF, 1 DE IVF, 1 DE FET, and 1 more DE IVF something worked for me!!!!
5 comments:
I am so sorry to hear about the walking situation, but glad that there is somewhat of a silver lining. Hopefully you will be back on your feet quickly after delivery, and that part will fade away.
Also glad that your GD seems ok from the perspective of your dosage - it does sound that you will be fine with the G instead of the I.
I'm so sorry about your dad, and hope that the news is the best it can be, and that they are able to transition to an appropriate place where you can concentrate on getting ready for Mr. Baby. That said, though, know that all he needs is a bassinet (or even a lined drawer!!), clothes, diapers, whatever you need to feed him, a couple other things and just your love and warmth. Eddie slept in a bassinet in our room for the first 2 months and then in a swing in our room (bc reflux) until he was 5 months. Another 1 month in our room in a pack and play, and then we finally put him in his crib in his room. Some people go to the crib in the room on day one and the nursery is all ready.
He won't know the difference, and the most important things are giving him what he needs for warmth, food, and a clean bottom. The rest will come when you have time.
re: L & D, it's just a fact that you'll worry about it. But you will be way too busy during it to really be thinking about anything other than getting him out of you. And trust me, by the time you get to term, you will be SO ready to have him that you'll be willing to have someone rip your head off and pull the baby out that way!! :)Nature has a way of preparing us just by sheer virtue of wanting it to be over already.
I'm thinking about you and just so thrilled to see you at 33 weeks. Hugs and love to you, WW and the fam.
I'm glad the little guy is doing fine, but I'm sorry that you're not. I will pray for your dad
I am so glad to see the update. I am also glad that the GD is under control.
Mr. Baby won't need much when he gets here and I am sure you will get the basics and all will be great.
Take care.. 33 weeks. WOW Time Flies!
Just thinking about ya and wanted to check in ;-)
I love your blog! I'm glad to know your procedure was successful! Your son is wonderful boy! I wish you and your family all the best! My dh and I were ttc for a very long time. I've got pregnant in 2009 and we thought that finally our prayers were heard. Unfortunately my pregnancy ended with a miscarriage. We've lost our son and it was shocking for whole our family. I couldn’t get back to life for a long time. I’m glad I have my dh. He gave me support I needed the most. We wanted to have kids so much, it was our only dream. Living childless life wasn't a variant for us. We were thinking about adoption at first. But we wanted our child to be genetically related to our family. Still I had some doubts. My dh looked at this procedure positively. It would be his child anyway. I thought I would be just some woman, who will carry a baby. I have a fear, that everyone will notice it's not mine. I thought it will be obvious and people will talk about it... Also I watched a tv show about de ivf. Some children started to look for women, who shared eggs with these kids' mothers. That was so sad. Those mothers didn't deserve such attitude. They made everything possible their children to have all they need and even more. And here is gratitude. But as this procedure was our only solution of our problem, I made a decision to do it. I should say de ivf is a very good option. I had this procedure in 2014. I've got pregnant from first attempt. We were on seventh heaven! Our girls were born in May 2015. We've just celebrated their first birthday. We used Ukrainian clinic BioTexCom. We are happy parents now! I have no regrets. As soon as I knew I'm pregnant all doubts were wiped out. We decided not to tell our daughters we used donor eggs. I think children' mind is not ready for such info. This fact will change nothing for them. The most important is to give them love and care. I consider myself as their only mother. This is everything they need to know.
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